Well today I feel like has been a very productive day. I had my routine shrink visit, which because I am bipolar I have to have, talked about the usual nonsense though he was not overly concerned about my insomnia; to be honest I am not concerned about it I just find it frustrating. He was happy that my mood swings are relatively stable and that I don’t get too high or too low; a few shrinks would up my med dose at the first sign of any fluctuation. So as shrinks go he’s not too bad and isn’t trigger happy with my meds. Which I have been told I can reduce them again from 300mg to 250 first then to 200 if I feel that’s right before I see the shrink next time.
Talking about next time my next appointment is now not till June, so nearly 6 months away. Last time I had a big gap like that I went a little loopy in the time between them and then ended up seeing a shrink every month for 5 months. So I am hoping that it won’t happen this time. Though I was also told that I would be getting a new shrink for that appointment as he’s being moved to deal with in-patients only; so this will by my 5th different shrink in just over 2 years. I added it up on the bus after I have seen 11 different shrinks in my life time, that’s a lot of talking about my feelings.
Anyhow after the shrink’s I went to the gym, I had given it a bit of a wide birth over December but today got back in to it. I have a nice spread sheet drawn up for this year that will log my endeavours so I can track what I do, as it sort of helps with the motivation at times. As I found a top that I really like but at the moment doesn’t fit so my aim is to be able to wear that top for my birthday in May.
After the gym I went and did my food shopping, and was shocked at how little I spent this month. I know I didn’t need much in the way of meat as last month I got a fair bit and really never touched it. I am not 100% sure what I ate last month as I seemed to not use half the stuff I brought. So I am determined to eat proper food this month well at least some of the time, as I did buy a few packs of jelly so I can have days when I just eat jelly, and the supermarket had expanded its range from just strawberry and raspberry so I have a few other flavours now.
Anyhow I decided to use the afternoon in a productive way and I sorted out the pile of clothes that was on the floor of my bedroom, and now I have floor!!!! Though I think I am going to have to sort out my underwear draw as it is very full now, I am sure some of them can be sorted out and removed.
Anyhow it’s back to work tomorrow and I know there is a lot waiting for me, which is going to be fun. Hopefully some of the work will be just a quick email reply and not too much work so I can feel like I have done something productive on the first day back and not just sorting things in to piles of urgent, do next and can wait a bit. Must remember to pack my gym stuff as well so I can go and relax after work.
